It’s been a long time since I took self-portraits. Maybe because, I had issues. Whatsoever! Heee~ But really, I missed this. Hello there, vintage cameras. I’d been planning a lot lately, mostly about my future. I’ve been stuck for a year looking forward for only one thing, but unfortunately, dreaming is totally a different thing from reality. So here I am, picking all the pieces of my life, and trying to figure out where to put them back. I am too happy and contented right now. I don’t have money, I don’t have a lover, I don’t even have all the things that people wanted to have, but still, I am happy. :)
I wouldn’t say that being single is better than being in a relationship/having someone to love and care, because really, everytime I hear people say that, I laughed inside. Why? Because it sounds really pathetic and yeah, BITTER. Hahahaha~ I don’t feel any bitterness at the moment, but I admit, there are nights and days I feel lonely. Maybe, I have finally reached the part where I don’t feel hurt anymore, even if I see someone with him that’s not me. I already accepted the fact that we are better off as friends. I have learned a lot from the past, and I think that is what’s really important. So, if someone new comes along, I know better what to do. It’s not a matter of rushing things, it’s more like finding the most complicated-man-but-you’d-love-to-love-forever kind of thing. Wait, I don’t even know if I should find him, whatever. :P
One always has to know when a stage comes to an end.